the circus at our house, 37w1d, and house news

The lion giving the monkey a ride on the tricycle

You have to hand it to 2 2-year-olds- they know how to have a good time.  Yesterday during what was supposed to be nap time, they broke into their closet and found their Halloween costumes.  So last night and this morning, they dressed up in costume.  Of course this also led to attempts to trick-or-treat and eat candy.  This morning they were on the tricycle- Benjamin drives and Asher hops on back.  They went in circles around the house and loops around the dining room table- I was laughing hysterically.  They are so cute and always coming up with new and inventive ways to make trouble.

How far along?  37w1d

Total weight gain/loss? The nurse told me 0 lbs over the past week.  Well, that is nice.  I am still huge.

Maternity clothes? Yes. Down to 1 pair of yoga pants, 1 pair of leggings, 1 pair of jeans, 2 pairs of work pants.  Slim pickings when things get dirty with one wearing.  

Pregnancy symptoms?  Mainly fatigue.  I am back to being really hungry (vs. being too full to eat). Why did I have to be so full on Thanksgiving, my favorite eating day of the year?

Stretch marks? Yes. My lower belly is killing me.  It feels like it's ripped apart- ouch!

Sleep? Somewhat better than last week- less trouble falling asleep, but I am waking up 2-3 times a night to pee and often have trouble falling back to sleep afterward.  I just remind myself, all of this is far better than the newborn, eat-all-the-time stage we are about to begin.  

Best moment last week? Watching my boys turn into sweet little guys- learning their manners, new words and phrases, and becoming adept at so many physical activities.  A friend of mine gave the boys a puzzle last night, and Asher has been very dedicated to putting it together over and over.

Movement?  Still going!  She loves, loves, loves sugar.  Just like mommy.

Food cravings? If it's food, I want it.

Gender? Let's assume- still a girl.  

Labor signs? My usual Braxton-Hicks.  They are slightly more painful from time to time, but that doesn't mean anything.  I did get another internal on Wednesday, and I was 1 cm dilated and 75% effaced, which was a change from the prior week.  Although it doesn't mean anything as to when I will actually go into labor, it was reassuring to know that there is change taking place, because I am not particularly interested in 1) going past my due date or 2) having an induction.  I was also told that I'm negative for Group B Strep, which is good news.  I am hoping for an easy labor and delivery!

Belly button in/out? In.  I am destined to never have an outie, thank goodness.

What I miss: Having a lap for my two guys to sit on.  Someone is always slipping off when I try to squeeze them both on what is left of my short legs.

What I am looking forward to: I am kind of looking forward to stopping work- it is awkward scheduling appointments with the disclaimer that they might not actually happen.  I like to be consistent and predictable, and telling people I just might not show up does not feel very predictable.

Milestones: I'm full term!  Hurray!  Now I just wait for this baby to come.  What a strange feeling- not knowing when she'll come.  I spend time thinking about how excited I am to hold her, look at her little bits and pieces, nurse again... and then spend time feeling completely anxious about how I don't want a baby to come.

I called my mom after my OB appointment this week and told her I am not sure I want a baby.  I'm just dreading the upheaval.  I am sure things will be wonderful, but in the meantime I am not handling the unpredictable nature of all of this very well.

10:12 pm- I wrote everything else in this post around 3:30 while we were at my parents' house.  The boys were napping there while we had an open house at our place.  Well, the open house was productive- we received an offer at 6 pm, and had signed papers by 7:15 accepting the offer.  AND they want to close December 21.  Because that means we won't have to pay 2 mortgages for even a single month, that is great.  Because I am due December 22, it's not great.  Oh my gosh.  Over the next 3 weeks we need to: fix up our new house (which we thought we had all the time in the world to do), pack up our current house, move down the street, and somewhere in there, have a baby.  Hahahaha.  When we do crazy, we do it right.