Sunday, September 16, 2012

26 weeks (and 1 day)

I should specify that the top of the bump is dinner, and the bottom is the baby. We ate a lot for dinner at my aunt and uncle's tonight because it is the start of Rosh Hashanah.

To compare, below is my belly picture from 26 weeks with the boys:
I think I'm bigger with one than I was with two!  I am really struggling with the way I look.  I know there is nothing I can do- I don't eat much more than when I am not pregnant- just an extra snack some days when I get hungry or lightheaded.  I don't eat anything crazy- no fast food, no junk food, no high-fat or high-calorie indulgences other than my dessert at night, which I ate before I was pregnant.  And yet I am expanding at a rate much faster than I did in my last pregnancy, when I was desperate to put on weight and had people bringing in things like Frostys for me!

I feel so vain and silly for complaining about it, but it is really hard for me to feel so out of control.  I am kind of used to a more direct correlation between intake and weight/size.  14 more weeks and then I will head in the other direction, I guess.

I had an appointment at the OB on Friday, and I don't feel great about things.  Again I didn't look at the scale.  The baby's heartbeat is good and strong, and I feel her move all the time.  There are two OBs in the practice- I like them both, but have a special affection for the OB who delivered my boys, Dr. G.  Yesterday I saw Dr. C, the other OB, who was the one who discovered my shortened cervix with my boys.  He decided to do an ultrasound check of my cervix, which I haven't had since 20 weeks.  At 20 weeks, my cervix was measuring around 4 cm, which was longer than it ever had in my pregnancy with my guys.  Yesterday, Dr C measured my cervix at about 3.1 cm.

I feel worried- he said that is completely within the realm of normal, and that I have no restrictions and shouldn't worry, but I guess I had in my head I wanted it to be 3.5 or higher.  Dr C did say that it is on the lower end of normal, but that statistically, even with this measurement, I am highly unlikely to go into labor or deliver prior to 34 weeks (early, but not the end of the world).  That, and the fact that I carried the boys to 36 weeks, makes him feel confident everything is fine.

Both Eric and my mom feel there isn't anything to worry about, that he is a specialist and can be trusted.    I go back in 2 weeks for another check.  I am trying to keep in mind that if I were "normal," and not a patient at a high-risk practice, I wouldn't know my cervical length in centimeters and wouldn't even be thinking about this.  I go back in two weeks for another appointment, and I'm assuming I'll have another ultrasound.  I am not sure if the amount of information is helpful to me, I think knowing absolute numbers gets me more worried.

I should add that when Dr C discovered my shortened cervix in my last pregnancy, he was very serious with me about what to do and going on bed rest.  He insisted I get the steroid shots for the boys' lungs at the earliest possible date- which is technically 24 weeks, but I got the first shot at 23w6d.  So I know Dr C is not a casual, wait-and-see kind of guy.  This does make me feel a little better.

In more fun and less whiney news, my mom and I took the boys on a walk and went past a neighbor's house, having a yard sale yesterday.  Apparently they have twin girls who are a little older than my guys, and there was a ton of adorable baby girl clothing!  I bought a bunch of stuff and the mom charged me $5 for all of it:
When Eric saw it all, he said I am clearly a mother-of-sons in recovery. I can't get anything that isn't pink!  I love the ruffles, the pink, the flowers, the hearts... I have waited a long time to buy these clothes!

How far along?  26 weeks
Total weight gain/loss?  Pretty sure more than I had gained with the boys at this point.
Maternity clothes?  Everything maternity, except for a couple of loose summer dresses and long tank tops.
Pregnancy symptoms?  Fatigue, occasional crabbiness.  Today my mom wanted to hang up on me because I was grouchy on the phone. I told her I was only being grouchy because she was pissing me off.  That was the end of that conversation!  And maybe a little more emotional.  The other week I was crying while listening to Democratic National Convention speeches, and I don't mean tearing up, I mean sobbing and nose-blowing.
Stretch marks? Nothing new.
Sleep?  It's still the same pattern- I can fall asleep ok, but then wake up at some point, for some reason, and have trouble falling back to sleep.  Every once in a while I will sleep straight through til 6 am or so, getting 7 solid hours, but that still leaves me a little tired.
Best moment last week? Apple picking with the boys, and Asher coming home and saying, "Lily, pick apples.  Mama pick apples."
Movement?  I get regular movement.  On Friday we were at our friend's house and there were 2 goldfish in a bowl, the way they swam reminded me of the way some of her movements feel.  She still has a lot of room in there and moves around much more than what I ever got to feel with the boys, who were pinned into place pretty early on.
Food cravings? No big cravings, mainly fruit.  And I have made a point of asking my mom everyday if she is making an orange-scented challah for Rosh Hashanah.
Gender? Still female, although no further exploration has been done.
Labor signs? No signs of labor, although I am not pleased by the shortened cervix. I do have Braxton-Hicks every day, but the doctor said that is normal.
Belly button in/out? In.
What I miss: Sleeping on my back. I can still find a way to kind of sleep on my belly, but I get short of breath on my back.
What I am looking forward to: all the delicious holiday meals in the coming week or so!
Milestones: Apparently I have fewer than 100 days left of the pregnancy, so that is exciting.  And this week I will go into the 3rd trimester, which is also a nice milestone!

1 comment:

  1. So...I know we have had discussions on this, and how tough it is...but I just have to say that you are crazy if you think you are bigger now than you were with the boys! seriously! You look great! and your bump was much bigger with the boys! (((HUGS))) take it easy on yourself and I'll send happy thoughts that your cervix behaves!